Life is interesting. As children, for the most part, we do things based on gut feel. Build a sandcastle, make a tree fort, eat cake for breakfast... and somehow we can get away with it because someone sees how happy it makes us.
As adults, we search for the right thing to do. There's a tendency to cast some dreams aside and search for stability: get a good education, a noble job, pay bills, etc. For me, I have trouble with this stability because it makes me unstable. It has something to do with following a path that seems more defined over the winding path that will make me happier.
I'm taking this winding path as often as I can, now. It makes me feel alive. It makes me appreciate things. It makes me truly happy.
Rules don't make a lot of sense, when it comes to life. They're logical, but so many things are so much better when they're illogical and don't seem to make any sense. There is something about intuition that is truly brilliant, and I'll never really know what it is. To me, that's what's beautiful. I don't want to know. I want to hear about it, but I don't ever want to find the answer because it's just not important. It's important to just be 'in it' as much as you can... to where it comes naturally, and you don't have to fight it at all.
I still have to fight, but I'm getting much better at giving in and doing what I feel like. I find it funny that we spend so much time trying to shed ourselves of childish rationales for our actions, but only when we can go back to it, are we as genuinely happy as we were then.